I decided to kick the public out of my head. I turned off access for the general public to my blog today.
In the past, the thought that someone else might actually read my ramblings helped motivate me to coagulate my thoughts into some reasonable presentation. I tried to say what I think in a way that I wasn't embarrassed for someone else to read. Plus it helped me update it regurlarly. That was actually important. Then it became a chore.
I still need the journal. But the formatting, finding a picture that represents my thoughts, coming up with a catchy phrase or quote to kick off each post, etc. has run its course.
So, previously I updated my blog just in case someone else would read it. (And a couple of people did, but not many.) Now I want to update my blog knowing that it won't see the light of day, just to consolidate and express my thoughts.
We'll see if it works better.